We'll Have Music Soon

Hi everyone. Leo Gardener here. We hope to have some music up soon. Maybe some pictures as well.

We've been busy recording for the last few weeks. Sebastian is our sound engineer in residence. But that doesn't necessarily mean he's a sound engineer (get it?), so we'll see how that turns out. It will at least be listenable. And in his words, it will probably echo through your bones and cause a great resonating in the enamel of your soul. At least, this is our great hope.

As for me, I am waiting for the darkness and the noise. Craig Finn of the Hold Steady says that he sees Jesus in the awkwardness of new lovers or something like that. I sit in these 24-hour cafes at night and watch the kids smoke and drink coffee and draw on each others' arms. Yeah, there's Jesus in that. He's longing to grow in them. And they are longing to become.

A question: can you long for something which you cannot, in fact, refuse? Can you desire your own possessions? These 16-year-olds become what they are not whether they desire it or not. In other words: how can something be constantly present to you, and yet be desired, and not only desired but perceived as unattained, even in its intimate closeness?... For instance: the teenagers who cannot sense their own becoming, and so desire their own growth even as their growth unstoppably proceeds. They are drowning in it.

For instance: the person who cannot sense the closeness of God, and desires Him (or more likely, desires "something better" or "something else") because He is, apparently, not there. And His Spirit might be living and moving in them, and they are drowning in His merciful forbearance, and yet they sense Him as unattained.

Or is it that the desire for God is insatiable? And yet, nothing could be greater than God--not even the desire for Him.